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Let Me Go

Sat, 05 May 2007 05:45:44 GMT

Alone.

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 03:41:13 GMT

Goodbye

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 20:01:09 GMT

GOODBYE

Close your eyes
and ill close mine
imagine us together
just this one time...

your hands so gently
brush my hair from my face
your lips and mine
in a sweet embrace...

a kiss that hurts
yet feels so right
your arms around me
your grip so tight...

my nails drag slowly
across you skin
i pull you closer
leading you in...

wanting you more
with every thrust
feeling the love
but consumed by the lust...

feeling the heat
we created together
a moment so perfect
but one that will never...

exist in this lifetime
but only in dreams
its time to let go
as hard as it seems...

so I kiss you once more
a tear falls from my eye
I take a deep breath
and I whisper goodbye...

goodbye

TJ-2006-copyrighted

Forever in a Dream

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 04:30:21 GMT

Forever in a dream

Each and every morning
when i wake up from my dreams
i realize im all alone
it makes me wanna scream

i want to sleep...

Why does he have to leave me
when I open up my eyes
i dont want him to go away
I hold my head and cry

please dont go...

I Dont know which is life anymore
the nightmare or the dream
they both just feel so real to me
as real as real may seem

end the nightmare...

all i know for sure
is that im happy when i sleep
he is waiting there for me
as im awake here and weep

i want to live my dream...

this man makes me feel so good
in each and every way
i do not want to wake again
in my dream i want to stay

i love you...

So now ill take a couple pills
then ill take a couple more
ill wash them down with vodka
then ill lay down on the floor

together forever...

the room is spinning rapidly
my heart is racing fast
forever i will be with him
to never wake atlast...

eternity begins now

TJ/2006 ©

In memory of Kurt...

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 04:50:38 GMT

In Memory Of Kurt...

Its been 4 years since you've gone
but I still keep you in my heart..
I never got to say goodbye
and now we're worlds apart

I think about the good times
the great friendship that we had
i let a distance come between us
and for that im truly sad

I took our friendship for granted
and the next thing that i knew
i woke up to a ringing phone
and got the tragic news of you

you had been taken away from us
right before my blinded eyes
it was too late for appologies
nothing left to do but cry

Im sorry I abandoned "us"
and I really miss you Kurt
I hope in peace you truly rest
though your absence causes hurt

I will never ever forget you
for our friendship remains true..
in my heart you'll be at rest
until my time is through

When that time has come
we'll be together again
for we swore that we would be
bestfriends until the end..

CLICK HERE TO LIGHT A CANDLE FOR KURT

Kurt.. you are forever in my heart

and the great times are to never be forgotten

See you when I get there

Until then RIP.. and know you are so loved and so missed...

Title Unknown

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 17:38:56 GMT

Title Unknown

Something burns inside me
that words cannot explain,
the hollowness inside of me
is making me insane,
not knowing what I want
disbelieving how I feel,
wanting needing happiness
but knowing its unreal,
I stare into the darkness
hoping for a sign,
to prove what burns inside of me
is a love yet not defined

-tj-2006 copyright-

I Want You

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 13:02:28 GMT

- I WANT YOU -

I want to feel your bodys heat
as I hold yours close to mine
I want to feel your sweet lips
moving up and down my spine

I want to feel your warm breath
as it lingers upon my skin
I want to feel your heartbeat fast
the way mine does within

I want to feel your arms around me
as you embrace me with your kiss
I want to feel you deep inside
as we let out crys of bliss

I want to wipe your tears away
when they're rolling down your cheek
I want to be the strength you need
when your feeling alone and weak

I want to be your best friend
the one you know and trust
I want to be your lover too
the one you need and lust

I want to be your comfort place
when your feeling sad and blue
I want to be your happy ending
and share forever, Me and You!

-TJ/2006 copyrighted-

?@#$...ARGHHHH

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 22:51:41 GMT

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Trapped

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 14:01:45 GMT

Trapped

Trapped inside a life of darkness
but trying to break free
not knowing where to run to next
all youve known is misery

how can you find that comfort place
the place youve never known
how would you recognize happiness
when in your life its never shown

you continue running in circles
hoping to find the way out
but you on keep hitting the same walls
all you can do is scream and shout

straining your brain to find a thought
that might set your soul free
thinking theres got to be a way
but always coming up empty

frusteration and anger taking over
your soul is becoming weak
your losing your mind, your sanity
noone around to hear you speak

banging your head againts the wall
as frusteration and rage take lead
you curl up on the floors of hell

and let your body slowly bleed...

TJ/2006

BLOCKED

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 04:33:02 GMT

blockED

A blank sheet of paper
Looks me in the face
thoughts scatter in my head
but not a word can be placed

so I run laps in my mind
to create words that express
the way that Im feeling
about heartache and stress

as i chew on my pen lid
only silence is heard
im straining my brain
but I just cant find words

to tell what im feeling
on this long lasting day
so i will continue to think
but until then i just may

curl up on my couch
and quit watching the clock
and accept the fact
That ive got writers block

TJ/-2006

Two Bodies

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 14:29:59 GMT

TWO BODIES

Two bodies together
surrounded by darkness
below the greyest of skies

in the heat of the night

Two bodies become one
giving themselves to eachother body & Soul
taking away the hurt
pleasure replacing pain

Two bodies together
as the tears from the sky
shower the two souls
that were once lost but now found

Two bodies become one
holding eachother so close, so tight
fitting so perfectly
seemingly made for one another

Two bodies together
mending old wounds
altlast finding a place for trust
their heart in anothers hands

Two bodies become one
as they lose themselves

in eachothers embrace
consumed by their passion

Two bodies together
colliding with eachother
with each strike of lightning
hearts racing as the thunder rumbles

Two bodies become one
as they make special music together
that only they can hear
loud moans, breathless cries

two bodies together
holding one another as they
tremble with eternal bliss
in the warmth of eachothers arms

Two bodies become one

the storm calms

two broken hearts are mended

as soulmates unite ...

TJ/2006

Words of a Stranger

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 13:22:49 GMT

Words of A Stranger

Theres something about him
that makes me feel right
all though hes afar
and long out of sight

the depths of his words
drown me with tears
although we've not met
in my heart he is near

he will never realize
how the timing was right
when I found him in space
how his words were so right

at a time in my life
I most needed a friend
he appeared in my world
and stood by til hells end

his words gave me a strength
that he could never see
the strength that allowed me
to set myself free

although i once lost him
again I have found
the stranger Ive known
and longed to have around

If you know who you are
please know this is true
my life changed for the better
after I found you

TJ/2006

This was inspired by somebody very important to me that I met online, he made me feel worth more than I was being brainwashed to believe I was, he made me realize there was better people in the world, people that would actually respect me and treat me as i should be treated, he made me smile like I hadnt in a very long time, he was my "smile of the day" that smile got me through tough times, that smile helped me rid 2 horrible things from my life without him even trying,

just by being himself ..just by being there when he was. For awhile we had a silent distance between us but there was not a day I dint think about him and miss the smile that he brought to my days,

the smile that saved me

never under estimate the power of reaching out a helping hand or lending a listening ear you have no idea the impact it could have on someones life, you may even unknowingly save one.

You wont often see this sort of write up after a poem... most of my writing is much different but something awful happened yesterday, something that brought back the worst of memories, something that struck a battle within myself, and thinking of this smile, and the words of this stranger ... reminded me of the inner strength that allowed me to move forth ... the inner strength that stopped me from taking a huge step back...

Ive always believed, and you'll often hear me say.. everything happens for a reason, and in my eyes finding this starnger was certainly no mistake. I can only hope that one day my cying shoulder,

helping hand & listening ear could be as helpful to someone as his was to me..

Turning the Tables

Wed, 31 May 2006 11:33:42 GMT

Turning the Tables

I loved you so deeply, I gave you my all
when push came to shove, you allowed me fall

Each time i reached up for your help to stand
you turned away, you retracted your hand

I needed you so badly, I gave you have my heart
you accepted it with a smile, then you tore it apart

Each time i searched, for your shoulder to cry
you shut me out til my eyes were dry

I wanted you so greatly, with my body and mind
you used me, abused me, then left me behind

Each day i wondered what Id done wrong
you played me for a fool, you tagged me along

Now the tables have turned and its you who loves me
I have nothing for you so please let me be

I see your hand now, its reaching for mine
I will not help you! no.. not this time

Times have changed and its you whos in need
to hell with you! just lay there and bleed

Im taking my heart back, its now longer yours
im walking away and closing the doors

now you want me? Its too little too late
you and I, We are non-existing fate

Its all over now, ill leave you to cry
thank you for the strength to say good riddence..
Goodbye!

TJ/2006 ©

Free My Mind of You

Tue, 30 May 2006 05:11:28 GMT

Free My Mind of You

All i want is to have my mind back
why wont you just get out of my head?
every day the thought of us
how we used to be, things that were said

why cant I just stop the thoughts?
just make them fade away
the harder I try to control my mind
the more it controls me every day

Get out of my life get out of my mind
overloaded with shoulda been coulda beens
what we HAD was one of a kind
now it has died..we have died..

WE is no longer WE it is nothing
merely You and Me...
but the thoughts still remain
and I sit and wonder...

will my mind ever be the same again?

TJ/2006 ©

Put the Pipe Down

Sun, 28 May 2006 13:26:43 GMT

PUT THE PIPE DOWN

put the pipe down
do it or die
your mind is escaping
as you let your brain fry

put the pipe down
dont you feel shame?
your children all need you
this is no longer a game

put the pipe down
you still have a chance
do you want to miss out
on your daughters first dance

put the pipe down
dont give it control
your body is depleting
along with your soul

put the pipe down
i know that you can
prove to the world
you can still be a man

put the pipe down
take back your mind
you have one last chance
its the end of the line

put the pipe down
clear out your head
if you cant do it
CONSIDER YOU DEAD!

TJ/2006 ©

Clasterphobia

Thu, 25 May 2006 14:21:05 GMT

Clasterphobia

in a room filled
with nothing but darkness
the walls closing in
no doors, no windows...

trying to scream
not a sound to be heard
the walls closing in
the soundproof walls...

gasping for air
no air to breathe
the walls closing in
faster and faster...

losing sanity
not a clear thought
the walls closing in
the dark raging walls...

everything fades
dark becomes nothing
the walls closing in
all four meet as one...

taking away
what once was life
the walls are closed in
fear now gone...

TJ/2006 ©

Necrophiliac

Mon, 22 May 2006 14:11:59 GMT

Necrophiliac

Take me, use me, have no mercy
I am but a hole in a body
go ahead.. deposit your evil

no fear within

Take me, use me, have no mercy
I wont scream, I wont fight you
go ahead.. ignore the tears

no hurt within...

Take me, use me, have no mercy
I am already dead inside
go ahead.. i wont tell a soul

no love within...

Take me, use me, have no mercy
the damage has been done
go ahead.. finish the job

no suffering within...

Take me, use me, have no mercy
you are done now leave me be
go ahead.. leave me for dead

no life within...

TJ/2006 ©

Poetry Space Ring...

Sun, 21 May 2006 11:23:09 GMT

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I have not been writing long, but have come to discover there is a mass amount of great poetic talent throughout msn spaces, so I thought what better way to unite our creative minds and share our writing and feelings with others who will appreciate it. So I started this ring and shall see how far it goes.

All you have to do to join is have a poetry type space, and after joining make sure to add the ring

to your space in order to activate your account, and keep your membership active.

-> CLICK HERE TO JOIN <-

HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL THERE!

Getting Over You

Sat, 20 May 2006 16:17:18 GMT

Getting Over You

Beat ...by... Beat
my heart is pounding

Tear ...by... Tear
my eyes are crying

Gasp ...by... Gasp
my lungs are breathing

Thought ... by ... Thought
my mind is racing

...trying...
...trying...
...trying...

trying to stay focused

...one less beat...
...one less tear...
...one less gasp...
...one less thought...

one step closer

to getting over you.

I am Me...

Fri, 19 May 2006 12:45:04 GMT

I am me

I am me.. not you...
(dont pretend you know me)

I think what I think
not what you think...
(dont pretend you know my mind)
my thoughts are NOT pleasant
and thats how I like them

I feel what I feel
not what you feel
(dont pretend you know what I feel)
pain and fear reminds me Im alive
and thats how I like it

I see what I see
not what you see
(dont pretend to see through my eyes)
I see reality in the darkness
and that is how i like to see

Ive lived What Ive lived

not what you've lived

(dont pretend you know my past)

Ive been happy Ive been sad

we all WILL die in the end

I believe what I believe

not what you believe

(dont pretend to be god...because your not)

I do not believe in the bible

and I do not chose to be "born again"

I am me.. not you...
(dont pretend you know me...because you dont)

If anyone is interested as to what my inspiration is for this scribbling, check out yesterdays comments, you will know which one I mean.. As I mention in my guestbook, I do not write to please anyone but myself.....

don't like it?

top left corner .. see the little red x?

click it it will take you to a better place!

Quote of the Day:

" If you dont like what you see here get the fuck out"

Extreme.. (ok.. they say "Funk" but you know what they mean ;) )

Photo Album: Gifts from he Crow :)

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 10:56:31 GMT

Gifts from he Crow :)

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Photo Album: The Souls Windows

Sun, 28 May 2006 13:51:36 GMT

The Souls Windows


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_____sorrow_longing_tears______by_Westia	___Fire_in_my_eyes__	040407_eyejewel_hmed_11a.hmedium	1123824516_eenmonthly
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Photo Album: Bleeding With Emotions

Mon, 22 May 2006 00:38:43 GMT

Bleeding With Emotions

Swim_In_My_Blood

_Losing_my_mind___by_Cloud2

Bleeding_by_Hills_of_myst

bleeding_pink_rose_7_by_UrDisasterousStock

Bleeding_Wall_by_RCA1988

Blood___Colored_Version_by_HisN

Blood_Roses_by_pharie82

Blood_Sugar_Bows_To_New_Bread

Blood_Tears

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Photo Album: When Lightning Crashes...

Wed, 10 May 2006 12:16:07 GMT

When Lightning Crashes...

There is nothing

that intrigues me more

than a storm....

The rumbling of thunder...

the beautiful lights

that crash down

lighting the

entire sky....

covering my skin

in goosebumps...

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